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    2/27/2007

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    3/20/2006

    Is there anyone out there

    Is there anyone out there for me will I ever be free from this lonely-ness I feel today. There comes a time at night when I turn on my pc, is there a message waiting there for me, is this going to be him the one true love, lets see, I’ll talk to him for a while wait and see, he sounds great to me, I like the look of him and he says nice things to me. We talk for hours about nothing really. We have talked  for days now you see, many things you know about me and so many things I know about you, but are they true is this really you, its been sometime now you see and you even text me, with all but a picture I see and the words for me that’s all I see. Do I want to know more does he want to know me? Will we ever meet; will this last for ever more? Or is this just another one that walks in and out the door never to see, I can’t find anyone to hold and want me?

    12/30/2005

    The long walk home part 1

    The long walk home

     

     

    It was just one of those hot summer days where the air is warm, birds are singing, the smell of summer was here, at last she sighed thinking how nice it would be to go for a walk along the riverside. Therefore, at that very moment, she grabbed her keys from the counter and picked up her small bag, which she had only just brought from a little shop she loved, and out the door, she went. Walking down the road, passers by saying hello, with the glow on her face they would smile and watch her go by, she felt very happy within herself today. In her long cream summer dress flowing as she walked, her eyes was as blue as the sky with a little green flicker in them, with a look of grace “how could no one notice her”. As she got into the park, there were noises of children laughing and playing on the swings, a dog running around with his owner, the trees all green and the grass was so nice she could not help but to slip off her shoes and walk along feeling the warm ground under her. She found herself to be humming to the sounds of the birds she wondered why she feels so happy and what for; she never thought that she could feel this way again, she could see the river in her sight. At last she was there the river was so clear you could see right to the bottom were the stones had been for many years from her childhood she could remember playing there, trying to pull the big stones up just to find hidden gems and gold, she laughed and walked on. As she went down the river she came to a point that she had never been before that was the point were she was never aloud to go past, her mother would say. However, it was on this day that she now could. A new place she had never stepped into, the feeling of being a child doing something that was not aloud came over her; she felt excited and went on. For a while, the surroundings did not look any different, but still she felt happy. Then she came to a small fence with trees draped around, there was a small hole she thought she could just fit through so she tried, and out she came the other side. To her surprise, nothing was the same everything was different? There was not a sound around her, no children playing in site, and not one dog; she could not even hear the barking from the other side of the fence. This place was like no other place she had ever been to, “how could I have never known about this I’ve walked all over this village” she said to her self! Walking along the riverside the water began to become shallower and there were some large stepping-stones from one side to the other, crossing over the stones, she followed the path around a small hedge and to her surprise, there stood a large old farmhouse. Surrounded with trees and so many flowers she could not believe her eyes, sitting down to rest she did not no what to do, thinking to herself “is this real am I dreaming where did this place come from. oh how I long to live here.” laying her head down to rest looking up to the blue sky she couldn’t help but wonder, if anyone lived here; what kind of person would be living all on there own or is it a big family home. “I need to go closer to the house, I need to see for myself” at that she sat up and was just about to stand and walk to the house, however there in front someone stood holding a hand out to help her,

    part 2 of THE LONG WALK HOME

    She slowly looked up and there in front of her stood a very handsome young man. She could not help but stare at him “wow” she thought to herself “were did he come from” at that he grabbed her hand and pulled her to her feet. face to face they stood she didn’t even no what to say to him so she just said, “thanks” at that he spoke to her with a smile “hi, were are you from, do you no that this is privet land”

    At that she went all red what do I say? “well no I didn’t, im so sorry do you want me to leave” he looked at her with a grin and said “no no you can stay if you like it so much here, its so quit I don’t see many people as I live on my own”. At that, they started to walk up the garden she could not be leave her eyes the house became bigger the closer she got at that she turned to look at the man. She gazed into his blue eyes, as he did into hers feeling each others warm and passion through the connection they turned there heads and saw the sky all lit up with all the shades or orange and red as the sun began to set. It was starting to get late and she did not want to leave, this all did not seem real to her, at that they reached a path that went around to the back of the house. Were there was rows of tall trees and in the middle of the trees there was an opening, they both walked towards it and to her surprise, there was another path. She slowly turned her head to look at him not knowing were she was going, As he reached out and held her hand they began their stroll down the old dusty pathway, listening to the wind and the birds singing as the sun set and the flowers blossomed the air was warm. She felt very funny being there with him, she could not stop looking at him and same as he, they did not speak a word they just walked and walked.

    10/11/2005

    mothers love

    Were would i be
     
    When im in dispear your alway's there,
    When im lost and can't find my way,
    you light up the way and guide me the right way.
    You give me hope each and everyday,
    even when there's nothing you can do or say,
    you are there too talk to no matter what i say.
    So many times iv had a go at you,
    the times iv arugued with you but yet,
    your still there to guide me thought
     
    I sometime's wounder why,
    but that's just you,
    even if it hurt's you to see me like this,
    your a bliss, a ray of light in the deep cold night.
     
    You came into my life sometime ago,
    your never that far from me were ever we go,
    we'er together forever it's just ment to be.
    I sometime's wounder if you was'nt here?
    would i still be me or would i change?
    would i be diffrent? who would i be.?
    However i would not want that to be.
     
    So many people come in and out of my life,
    but this is ment to be your with me,
    we alway's have so much to do and see,
    the laugh's and funny thing's we do and say,
    all the game's we have played,
    and the time's you have cryed just wanting me,
    you have made my life full of joy's that you could'nt even see,
    how much you both mean to me,
    that's how i'll alway's want this to be,
    just you and me.....
     
     
    10/10/2005

    This is for all the mothers out there?

     Well iv been a mother for 8 years now and i have learned alot now, however theres still much more to learn in life as a mother, first with them growing up from birth to stepping there first steps in to school, now that was the hard part not for them but for me, you ask why, well its now the child that has the big problem about it yes they may cry and keep hold of you but thats just for the first days, its the fack of the loving parent that is then left alone with out there child for the first time in three years. woow its along time, if you think about it what do you do now with your self? for that shourt time that thay are not there you feel lost and dont no what to do with your self and you still look around for them at home, you start to clock watch laugh as you may but we all do it, however it gets easyer as time goes by, then two years go by and your child has learnt so much your so happy with him or her and its time to go to big school now (as my child call it) now your child will be in school for even longer and that same old feeling comes back you feel lost and dont no what to do with yourself yet again well dont worry you will get your head around it just as i have and many other mothers have, And i would love to say good look to you all with your children i hope you enjoy having all the joys that children bring

    what ever

        well hello to all the people that have come on here today,
    well i had a nice day today, just spending time with the family can some times be good for you and fun.